closer
The movie I saw with D was called Closer, written by Patrick Marber, directed by Mike Nichols and competently performed by Jude Law1, Julia Roberts2, Natalie Portman3 and Clive Owen4.
It had the feel of something that had been written for the stage, and indeed, I subsequently found out that Closer is Marber’s screen adaptation of his own play. As such, it reminded me of several plays I’d written in my twenties for the Unlikely Theater Company in Phoenix. Marber worked with the same subject matter, rendering it more skillfully. Just barely, which is not to say my work was very skillful. His, however, was a few small steps above something banal and amateurish. A handful of his lines were things I’d actually written myself – verbatim.
The story followed two couples – well, four people who coupled in different configurations at various points in the story. It was about fidelity and forgiveness, selfishness vs. self restraint. It was about truth and lies in relationships and the relative value of each in various contexts. There were no redeeming characters, and I walked out of the cinema feeling like I’d just spent my evening at a cocktail party chatting with a whole lot of people I couldn’t stand.
At the same time, it made me reflect a little on my own relationships and how hard it is to share life with someone. When I think about my own individual life, I would never go back and erase even the most difficult things I’ve been through, and I would never wish for a future without more trouble. I don’t wish for tragedy of course, but eternal unblemished happiness would become a different kind of unbearable lightness.
When it comes to relationships, it goes without saying that you can’t stay in the honeymoon period forever, and a relationship would feel pretty insubstantial if you could. It’s just so goddam hard to endure unhappiness with another person.
Near the beginning of Closer, Jude Law’s character kisses a photographer (Julia Roberts) while she’s shooting the jacket photo for his book. Afterward, she asks him whether he’s living with Alice, the girl on whom he based his novel’s protagonist. He tells her “yes”, he is. She then asks him, in reference to the kiss they just exchanged, “why are you wasting her time?”
I hate the idea of having wasted time, mine or anyone else’s.
1 the overexposed
2 the overexposed and overrated
3 the beautiful and underutilised
4 the nearly forgettable
